I have decided I will never understand "love". I want to love another, by every meaning of the word. I try so hard to love others. I meet someone I think I really care about and I give it my all. In the end, they fuck me in the ass (literally and figuratively). So what … Continue reading Bottle of Wine on a Tuesday
Twenty20/@kirillvasilevcomI stopped questioning myself. I stopped asking myself all these toxic questions about my self-wroth, my looks or my character. I stopped being so hard on myself and magnifying every little flaw. I stopped expecting myself to be perfect so I can feel good enough for you. I’ll always be a work in progress but… via … Continue reading
Am I crazy? How can I be in love with someone who is unobtainable. Why do I crave his touch, his lips, his smile? What is it about him that makes him so incredibly amazing? I am floating in a world of ecstasy when I'm near him, and pain when I'm not. Knowing he's not … Continue reading
God & Man You don’t realize that she’s hurting, because she doesn’t want to make a big deal out of anything. She doesn’t want to turn something small into something major. So she forgives you for things you never even realized she was mad about in the first place. She keeps giving you chance after… via … Continue reading
Free time is a curious thing. When I was younger I was excellent at amusing myself: I would read, swim in the pool, go for walks with Biscuit (my ever so loving childhood Bichon). I find as I get older I am getting worse at doing things on my own. I will sit around and … Continue reading Fill Your Life with Love and the Rest will Fall into Place
I'm feeling restless, antsy. I don't know what to do with my mouth, my hands, my brain, my body. I am stuck at home with strep throat, which has led to a little too much time for thinking. Sure, a hobby would come in handy during these hours, however my hobby is running. I can't … Continue reading Restless
I was crying on the bus last week, when my Aunt brought my attention to a song by Gnash, "I Hate U I Love U". Every lyric in this song helps to describe exactly how I am feeling these days: Feeling used But I'm Still missing you And I can't See the end of this … Continue reading How is it You Never Noticed That You Were Slowly Killing Me?