And Indian Food. You got to love Indian Food. It's completely comfort food- rice, creamy sauce and chunks of meat with bread. It is comfort food in every culture. Today I feel quite unsettled, restless. Just a recap on my life: there are two major players that I really care about, both completely unobtainable for … Continue reading Sunday Night Wine
"Guys like no drama, no expectations , no demands, no pressure". - My Aunt Maybe I would have believed this if I was in my early twenties. However, being almost thirty (cough cough, I'm getting old), I know better. Sure, some guys fit this category. But many guys are the exact opposite, and have greater … Continue reading
I went on an amazing 5 mile hill run tonight. It was cool but humid. I didn't mind the sweat pouring down my face one bit. It was exhilarating. Running always helps me to feel free. It allows me to think without interruption. No one is in my face to distract me from what I … Continue reading Letting Go
I have decided I will never understand "love". I want to love another, by every meaning of the word. I try so hard to love others. I meet someone I think I really care about and I give it my all. In the end, they fuck me in the ass (literally and figuratively). So what … Continue reading Bottle of Wine on a Tuesday
Am I crazy? How can I be in love with someone who is unobtainable. Why do I crave his touch, his lips, his smile? What is it about him that makes him so incredibly amazing? I am floating in a world of ecstasy when I'm near him, and pain when I'm not. Knowing he's not … Continue reading
I was crying on the bus last week, when my Aunt brought my attention to a song by Gnash, "I Hate U I Love U". Every lyric in this song helps to describe exactly how I am feeling these days: Feeling used But I'm Still missing you And I can't See the end of this … Continue reading How is it You Never Noticed That You Were Slowly Killing Me?
You are my heroin. Every day I wake up thinking I don't need you; Every day I am proven wrong. I crave you, my heart screams for you. I panic when you are not around, unsure of when I'll get my next fix. As days go by, the pressure mounts, My heart is pounding and … Continue reading You are My Addiction