I went on an amazing 5 mile hill run tonight. It was cool but humid. I didn’t mind the sweat pouring down my face one bit. It was exhilarating. Running always helps me to feel free. It allows me to think without interruption. No one is in my face to distract me from what I need to work through.
I got to see him one last time before he leaves for a long time. No doubt, it was a great night. I wish we had more time. But, all good things come to an end. This may be our end. Or at least a time during which I can let go of all of the things and allow new good things to enter my life. A year and some months of my life have been spent loving, worrying about, and suffering for him. I am finally letting go. I am going to allow this time for growth. For discovery. And for moving on, if that’s what is in the cards.